24/12/06

// feeling :: hungry
// prayer for :: tmr's svc

Doubt I'm coming tmr. No one to bring anw...although I really wanna bring my parents.

Sho. Gab, Cailing, Angela and Patricia came for today's svc. So happy. Svc was good, but yesterday's felt nicer, because watching everything a second time was kinda boring since I knew what was coming next. But Catherine said God's presence was stronger than yesterday. I've yet to be sensitive to that.

Went formal again. Lol. Shirt again. I realise that I have a lot of such shirts at home.

Angela went down for altar call!!! But Gab and Cailing commented on that in a rude way to Patricia. I got quite fed up, actually. But well I dont want to talk about that...

I like the feliz navidad song. Lol.

I cant wait for thanksgiving.

Ate at the carnival then went home. Saw my ex FCBC cell group in the train. =/ Kena shocked. Michelle, Jiayee, Mun Yee and of cos, their cgl Joanna, my ex-Physics teacher. It was, well, weird la but ok la....

I saw how the members treated Joanna. Like a friend. Made me think about how our members treated Catherine. Used to think that Catherine is a leader, a superior figure, and we muz always treat her with respect n reverance. I never thought of the possibility of her wanting to be one of us.

But well I duno. I dun really knw her tt well I realise...Juz that she come from a non-Christian family...dates Alvin...cant stand late-comers, ppl who dun respect right things...the normal cgl things of her. I duno her favourite food, her favourite place to be, hobbies, etc.

That has to change. I want to know more about her because she is my cgl.


I used to want free time to hang out at home. But now, as its only early evening, I've got nothing to do. Only, watch tv. Eat. Use computer. Watch tv again. So routine, so mundane. I need a hobby.

Tmr is Christmas. Going to have steamboat with Dehua, Mj and Zhiyang. I duno about the rest; gotta check with them later. First time spending Christmas with ppl other than my family.

Jiayee made me realise that church is my life. W271 is my family. So is W229 and E429. I spend the most time with them. I spend the most time in church. I think a lot about church and being with my cell. Work, is also for church, for the building fund. Thats why I'll never leave church. Its my identity.

Last time, I used to hate church. My parents had to drag me there. I'd refuse to wake up in the mornings, or lie that I had to study for a test or that I was going to another church. Wild horses couldnt make me go to church willingly. And now, lol, wild horses cant take me from church.

Wonderful how God works. I duno how He got me back to Him. Maybe its because I've an open mind towards God, just not to my parents.

I just wish. I could say the same for my sisters.

Whats salvation, when ur own family isnt there...

All in all, service was great. Today was great.